location : the computer
mood : lazy/lousy
loving : my new formspring


HELLLLLOOOOO
i know you just clicked on the "formspring" link thingy above. and now you probably closed it after typing a question of maybe you minimized it and started reading this, hoping i might explain it.


HA, i know i'm a genius :P


so anyway, a formspring is where you ask a question and i'll answer it. just type a question into the box on my page and that question will be in my formspring inbox. and i'll decide whether or not to answer your question depending on whether its appropriate. and i know its so pathetic right now cos there's only one question there, so i need you guys to ask me whatever you want!


moving on....
okay, so most of you know that i learn ballet right? maybe not, but whatever, now you know. and if you're one of those who know me but didn't know that i learn ballet, you'll be thinking, oh my god, really? i swear that you don't look like you learn ballet, cos you're so tomboyish. or if you're one of those people who are shallow and also dance, you'll be thinking the same thing, except in your mind, you'll be like, seriously? but you're so....FAT.
so fat people can't dance? it's not like i don't know i'm fat for a ballerina. i've been trying to cut down on what i eat, so just shut the fuck up.


this is how i feel whenever i'm having the class that i auditioned for at SDT. it's like whenever some other girl stares at me, i'll feel like, oh my god, i know i'm fat, so just stop looking, okay? seriously, the world is so competitive and everyone thinks that only stick thin people can be ballerinas.


i shall rest my case. i hate stick thin dancers who stare at me like i'm a monster. let's talk happy things instead, shall we?


so last saturday i went for my regular ballet class. we did this back stretch which needed one person to pull your hands back for you so that your hands touch your legs. it sounds easy but its actually kind of difficult. and since you needed another person to help you and that day only five of us went for class, my teacher made me the odd one out and she did the exercise with me. and my back has been aching since and it's still painful whenever i bend down. i really hope this problem goes away cos it's very scary whenever i think that my back may not recover and i might not be able to dance again :(


OH! and i forgot to tell you all that i think i am performing in this year's YOG opening/closing/both ceromonies but i am not sure of any details yet so don't go tell anyone anything.


i think i have to go now. this is getting LOOOOOONNNNGGG.
bye!
p.s. remember to post on my formspring! link is at the top of this post :DDD